life with a cloud acts as a dream
maybe the lights are dimmer and
the ground from under you seems to shrink.
life with a cloud is black at 2 am
when you’re rubbed raw
waiting for a grey cloud to clear
a cloud lying incognito to outsider ears.
instead of a heart, you’ve got lead
nothing touches you
a day is forever at all, years are as fleeting as a dark waking dream
life with a cloud blurs reality
until all you are is lying in a stranger’s bed, waiting for a change
seeming to float.
the descent into a cloud is lighter than
you may think you’re thick and unscathed,
but your skin is being rubbed raw,
cuts you didn’t know you had
things you wouldn’t fight against
you suddenly find all around you,
Sleeve rubbing the raw skin with fleshy pain
and at the worst of it all,
when the cloud takes your eyes,
daylight to my dark,
it will flood.
white white tiles on me on bright fluorescent
oh, the water comes.
the water comes rushing in.
it’s a moon behind the cloud.
it washes your raw, your hurt
and hurt over hurt
underwater you thought you’d drown
but at least you can feel again, you’re found
watch, at first it will sting,
wounds too long gone dirt.
oh the floods break.
droplets in your new eyes,
a little too bright, but you’ll adjust
long resented, long repented
this is arrival.
learn to show your raw
your let loose,
bare and vulnerable
let them gasp
let the water come
and in the lilies
in the white of the basking sun,
you will feel loose in your new skin,
let your life with a cloud melt away.
on the ground
you’re out of a haze
blazing red labyrinth
maze of your mind free to be navigated, told and tell
this will be life.
phoenix to the fire
you, you are rising.
ruby of my minds eye
raw was a resolution
to your fire.
don’t take another heart,
aren’t you sanctified?
you’re a fire, you’re a passion
lights up ruddy against it all
in the daybreak
you’ll draw blood
and not look back.
not to say,
that there won’t be pain
but let it serve as a sweet reminder
of how much you’ve survived.
a taste of tongue
hear your own voice
all up loud n life
breaking up to tell your
it’s not finished, nor will it ever be.
oh no love,
you’re not alone.